To my person.

I’ve never felt such a connection, a love, a need for someone’s presence in the most platonic of ways before in life. The idea of having a friend that is so necessary in my life for the good, the bad, and the ugly seemed like one of those things you hope for but never really receive. We have our best friends, our good friends, and our family. Those are a different kind of liking towards a person. A different connection on a totally different level. The importance of a platonic love in my life has never been so real and so important as it is now. In the terms of a show so close to my heart, Grey’s Anatomy, you are the Cristina Yang to my Meredith Grey.

We were always secondhand friends, friends through our closer friends. Once or twice we hung out alone but they were probably the most awkward of silences for most of the day. Then in what seemed like the most dramatic of fashions we went against the grain and spent a day together out of the blue. From there on out you were the person I knew I could talk to about anything with an open mind and without judgement. At this point it’s fair to say we know every corner of each other’s lives. Some things more grazed upon while others being picked apart to the root. Every car ride guarantees some form of a life altering discussion, and even then we still laugh about the dumbest of jokes moments after.

Life is hard, especially right now. Family loss, stress of school, work, transitioning into adulthood. It all adds up into the most aggravating of times. Having someone like you around to keep me at bay and remind me right from wrong. Always willing to tell me what I need to hear and taking what I tell you to heart, too. Whatever earth balancing simile one wants to call it, you are just that to me. A yin to my yang and one I hope permanently resides in life.

Thank you from the core of my being and back for becoming, on such short notice might i add, the balance in my otherwise upside life.

XX bw

The struggles of being a community college student.

Hi all! Happy Thursday (or more excitingly so, happy Friday eve).

Today, I was sitting at school trying to come up with ideas of what to write about next and figured what better thing to write about than college!

For starters, let’s get into the basics about college for me. If it wasn’t already obvious, I attend a community college about fifteen minutes away from my parent’s house on a good day. Community college is basically like high school with more in depth content. At least, that’s how it is for me. There are more people from my high school and middle school than I would have ever liked to say go to college with me. However, the main reason I – like most people at community college – chose to attend was to save money. The plan that I had set up for myself, along with my parents input, was to attend community college for two years and get my gen-eds out of the way before I go to a larger university for the next two years (and likely the last). I did end up taking half a year off after high school for personal reasons and now I’m in my second semester as a college student. So, without further ado let’s get into the very struggles I have encountered so far as a community college student (though most college students in general could relate):

  1. Having an hour or more breaks in between classes and having no dorm to go home to. and if you’re like me, which most aren’t, you don’t drive so there’s not even a way to leave school.
  2. Being surrounded by so many people from not only high school, but middle school also. Maybe for some of you this is a benefit but in my case, it is most definitely not.
  3. Too rich for financial aid, too poor for tuition in full. payments plans are the best and worst thing ever invented.
  4. The lack of social events & opportunities. unless you play sports or are just a very overly-social person, making friends in community college that you didn’t have prior is near impossible.
  5. Working at your job every day you aren’t at school. Now, I totally know that university students who live on campus have like on campus jobs or even ones off campus but living at home always seems to mean more time for a job and even less time for a social life / studying / real college stuff.
  6. Study groups / Group projects / anything related to groups at community college. it’s impossible. plain and simple. one person works Tuesdays but everyone else works Wednesdays, and one person only has the car on Thursdays. oh, but the last person doesn’t even drive. the word group makes me cringe.

Six seems like an awfully random place to stop, but hopefully you all found this somewhat easy to relate to or at least got a good laugh out of it. Feedback is always welcome.

 

XX BW